la-fcuk

blogshift again

2007-08-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

decided to change the blog add once and yet again. thought that naughty was kinda well..naughty. but its just so poser. haha. anyways. call it whatevr you want, a new start or what shit. its just a shift. maybe i do wanna learn to move on. and this is a stepping stone? ok a lil childlike ah.. but. im feeling so vulnerable right now i dunno what to think. so.. yeah. Bye la-fcuk and Hello gorgeous 19.
OH! my fav numeral. hehhehs!

http://barenakedd.blogspot.com

back for a bit

2007-08-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

yes hellos, shut up i know i haven't been here in ages. too much happened till i have no idea what t say. dumbfolded. like totally.

there are still waves of emotions. you know there is. but its pouring in me. the droplets just can't stop rolling. it feels like a distant memory what seemed to be far from eternity.
broken. vague. lost.

fuck.

pls tell me u'll be strong. for urself. i believe heaven has its ways and god has plans.
since when have i becomed so holy? wtf.

everything just seems to be fading to grey.....

darkness.

2007-06-24T05:37:00.000+08:00

im here this early in the morning. rare site. but i cant sleep. been tossing in bed since 3plus. got bored and so decided a lil blog time won't hurt.

addicted.thanks to bern.haha!

sigh, sometimes don't you just wish you could have an out of body experience to look at ur life in a different, perhaps better, perspective? to redo things that could have been done better, to live life better, and not be stuck in a rut and all such stuff? but perhaps that's how life is, how we learn each day new things abt each other, abt ourselves. but i do really wish for that out of body thing. won't it be cool? like you get god's view on life. haha ok think im talking a little weird. too early in the morning brain don't function too well.

2 hrs before leaving for work. shoots. HDB Hub's effin' warm. heaven pls allow rain and strong wind today. thankyou. amen.

roadshow + strong wind&rain = roadshow ppl not perspiring like pigs in a barn = more ppl seeking shelter = better turn-out @ roadshow = more ppl getting our lovely prizes = win-win situation!

(singaporean accent) my illustration of the picture is very good right? im so proud of myself :)

shopping day

2007-06-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

Location: Bugis Street
Items purchased: 1 black pair of skinnys, 2 minis, 2 tees, 1 zooyear tee for piggy
Damage to wallet: nearing 200 incl. misc expenses for the 4-5hrs there.

what a way to spend the day right? wow. now im really in need of my paycheck.

countdown to wed = final theory (read: haven't studied anything)

rights so im off to bed. loooong day tmr. nights all! ♥ningy

what a day!

2007-06-22T03:01:00.000+08:00

Today was uber fruitful. met poly darlings and sec sch buddies. no visuals tho. ate alot. caught Pirates. NICE! gab laughed the loudest. so funny! hearts Darren for always taking the time and effort to plan outtings.
After, it was ChompChomp. ate alot. like whatthehell. then slacked abit at CoffeeBean. and after, before finally heading back. sigh. i love this times. hope it can remain. hate those little fuss we had.

Anyways, i miss moo.moo.eileen. (you reading? hugs!)

Ok going to bed. Sweet dreams everybody!

im back people!!

2007-06-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

im so finally back to blogging. last month of the 4-mth-break. did i do alot? yes. did i do anything productive to be proud of? not really. gave up halfway. sigh. that's so me, ain't it? anyways, most recently did chevolet-transformers roadshow at suntec. another one this weekend. it was fun. met ppl, as usual. um, random photo updates:

the stage with toys prepping for the challenge

kiddy kiddo contestants

some of them are REALLY quick!

the walking 'machine'

Jacquelyn - the first girl i got to know

din manage to take visuals with the rest.

definitely my dummies

toilet pic for any occasion. um, duck's still in the cubicle, stuck in the bowl?

&im soo craving for chocolate fondue right now. *drools*

temporary hiatus

2007-04-27T11:31:00.000+08:00

posting will resume in a week - ciao!

karma

2007-04-18T15:21:00.001+08:00

realised that actually having time to chill and laze ard a lil is not totally bad! ever since stopping work, everyday for me is movies, eat, meetups with long-not-seen pals, etc. gosh. this is the life! but......my finances are depleting. haha. so totally not working is definitely not an option. BAHH!!

during the few days -

SUN: erm.. i blanked on what happened this day. haha! STM(short-termed memory)
MON: met angus to pass him camera, went to RM to meet kenbear, melvin chang and alvin briefly, saw lana and her 'bf' and jashawn coincidentally. chatted for abt 1 1/2 hrs and fled.
TUES: dinner and waffles with gabdarl mayfen cheehan aaron and darren at Galare. 1/2 priced tues. missed out on free cone day at B&J's tho. met der aka botak at mac for a tinsy bit before mummy dearest calls him home. haha. awwww!
WED (today): intended on morning swim but couldn't get my lazy ass up. wasting time at home. movie night at brother's.

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i typed and eventually deleted this huge portion.
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of recent, i realised i don't wanna live my life thinking back and having regrets. i hate regrets. been having them my whole life. it sucks. fucking much. i wanna treasure what i have now. i wanna do everything i've been wanting to do. i wanna go where i haven't been. i wanna show love to the ppl i treasure. i wanna stop procastinating. really stop. i've always known that the way our lives are are based on how we handle them. but i've never really put any thought into this and like mum says: "...always talk but no action...". i don't wanna make the same mistakes, don't wanna go by everyday still wondering yet not finding and feeling all over the place. i wanna own my life, and not having life own me.

its all bull

2007-04-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

Randomly typing events that occured. nothing much tho. like i said, its all bull. so you can choose to skip this entry.

Anyhows, been job scoping ard centrepoint. went into many many stores enquiring for part-timers. but it din really work out. filled in so many forms my hands are cramping. well, i'll just cont. in other areas then.
leen where'd you go to hunt? any keepers? intro leh. how's the camp instruct thing btw? like no news huh?
boohoo where'r the lobangs when i need 'em? :(

Ok so friday's meet with the girlies cancelled. (I can see piggy smiling.) So Shan, what's that on ur plan to k or whatsoever on friday?

Last day at MM. weird customers today, the few of them.

Am gaining weight, FAST! not sure how. ok i lied. duh, of cos i know! sitting for long hours makes all those snacks and food go to my tummy. normally they say it'll go to your ass, obviously not in my case. how i wish....... *snaps out of dreaming*
Ok back to reality = needa exercise more man. speaking of which, anyone interested in heading to gym? im a sua gu, whatever you call it, cos i've never visited a gym. erm ok i've never actually done proper workouts when i do visit the gym. haha so i have totally no idea how to go about doing those equipments. anyone teaching freelance? LOL!

ohOH have been listening to chinese songs these few days. gawd i've missed out on many good tracks. and the shop next to mine's playing those recent tracks. cool! there's this Genie girl, her voice very sainai, very sweeeet! haha. just have been hearing alot of songs from her album so kinda addictive. Bubblegum singers, tsk. these songs do fizzle out in awhile tho. erm ok why did i end up critisizing? HAHA!

Yeah kinda saw Beverly whats-her-name? from SG Idol. she looks...erm....not flattering. haha. sorry but that's already sugar-coating it a lil. a tattoo done badly (or maybe its just her flabs), HEAVY Avril-Lavigne-wannabe eye makeup, clothes that make even those from Ugly Betty look WOW, and definitely bad hair day. haha. well, ya I don't like her, SO?

bugger got interupted for the umpteen f* time. and still no sales. whatever la. talk until my mouth so dry ppl just go "oh, i see. thank you i'll come back again." smiles. walk away. vanish and never come back. fucking customers dont want come back dont say so lah! just say thanks or whatever then walk away. we dont cheat u then you wanna cheat us.
haha ok im talking kiddish. but really sometimes i'd wish they'll stop saying they'll be back cos 99.9% they just won't. LOL.

wow time past quick today. my mind not working now, later~

cont..

2007-04-10T07:37:00.000+08:00

right ok din really know how i wanna express my feelings so the previous post came up a lil messy. in a lighter tone now. woke up dead early today. hope to do so from now on. sleep early, wake up early. mummy says it makes the day longer.

anyhows, my phone's becoming a lil siao siao (chinese for crazy). keeps lagging or hanging. must've dropped it too many times. oops! jeanjean you want this phone? erm..think of other options too k? lols!

scheduler:
tue-thu: work
fri: night hang with girlies
sat: dar-time
sun: fam-time

Haven't been reading for ages. suddenly feel like grabbing a book but have no idea what good books there are. Anyone has anything to recommend?

ok so im looking for more jobs now, hopefully those that can expand the knowledge of my puny brain. anything that's fun yet interactive and exciting?

preferably paying 5.5/hr or more
weekdays
preferably self-scheduled - ala fnb timeslots - (preferably. read: not must)

any offers pls email me at ningy_@hotmail.com or tag my board. thankyou! :)

In Loving Memory

2007-04-10T06:55:00.000+08:00

They say life is short, its unpredictable. that's why we need to treasure the ppl ard us, especially those whom we love and respect. but what does it mean by treasure? to some, treasuring is by meeting oneself as much as possible, how much one sees the person equals to how much the friendship holds. but to others, treasuring may just be holding the person close to the heart, you don't need to meet or hang out, you don't need to talk on the phone for long hours, but you know that the person will definitely be there when you need him/her, always or as much as one can. of cos one can argue on how much you need to catch up on each others' lives to truly know what the person is going thru, or at least making the effort to try to catch up once every how-long. yeaps this i agree. if the two parties can find time convinient enough for both to meet up for something meaningful, it is definitely worthwhile. It is of cos for the better if you get to know one's friend's life inside and out. but note that at this age with whatsoever commitments, it's unlike in the school days where we can meet each other everyday and talk and pass letters and gossip and meet. NO! these things are almost impossible now! we resort to emails, text msgs, brief call-time, short meet-ups to fill the void of the emptiness that used to rule our world (when in school). but even these can't expect what life will give you and bring you next.

Someone to look up to with love and respect. A really sweet and beautiful person inside and out.
Rest Peacefully, Mei Yan. You will be missed!

2007-04-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

FUG! MY BACK HURTS FUCKING BAD! sitting on the floor instead. interchanging between sitting, standing, squatting and kneeling to ease as much of the ache as possible.how pathetic can it be man! and customers come in, take a quick walk and goes. then i sit stand, kneel stand, stand walk towards them+greet. fug. i don't hate my job. but i get pissed when my back hurts.

ok i totally can't get Picasa2. anyone knows? so i used multiply instead. not much yet. but i'll upload it slowly. should i load the past as well? anws. i realised im a total noob when it comes to blogging or whatsoever. in the past, i just blogged but din bother to go discover anything else. just the basics and im contented with. so earlier was just browsing thru the new blogger features and realised there'r so many interesting stuffs! lols. and i re-signuped many of those hosting sites cos i forgot my usernames. haha!

jean and kenneth's coming for movie later. date nv call us. happy lor.

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ok sorry just as i was typing that last sentence, they appeared. haha. dejavu. ken say i look shag. really do i? gosh. facials, masks and massages await me. come money come!

working almost everyday next week. need the gold, really. kill me pls!

oh and i need to start being not so random. LMAO!
later~

today's post

2007-04-05T15:25:00.000+08:00

am at work. my back hurts bad due to improper chair posture. thinking of bringing my own chair to work. duh. dumb. i know. haven't gotten my pay! (boss you seeing this?) haha. im sooo broke and payday's always later than supposed to. ask me if its a problem? i'll say YES cos my monthly expenses depends on my pay. sad huh? plus this two month's so many bdays. stress. ):

mummy came briefly to see me. hearts her always buy so many yummy cakes.tmr's qing ming, gotta wake up uber early. joss smoke here i come!

Anyone know of cool places to chill that opens into the night? at least till 12 or 1 or later ?

okie be back later-

mellee *edit

2007-04-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

*This post was supposed to be up last night but had problem getting it published so here it is*

Holidays have finally arrived so i have no excuse not to blog constantly, right? haha. knowing my history of keeping up with my blog, i can only say i'll try.

Anyhows, have tons to do. i wanna improve myself this holiday and not waste it off like every other holidays i've had. and im gonna stop sleeping all the time. yes, stop. cos sleeping anytime apart from routine is just a waste of time, which i have already wasted like a century of! So yeah..time to stop looking at my lovely bed. Lots of events taking place. so much yet so little time. sigh. time waits for no man, indeed.

I wanna apologise to pals whom i have neglected for since dunoo how many monkeydogcatmouse years ago. really sorry!! but we'll catch up soon ok? promise.Hmmm yeah i need you guys to understand cos tho im having ma hols, my work days are so totally clashing with your free days, all of yours, coincidentlly. no kidding. and then wkends are like bf cum family days, so cut those out and im only left with like a few hours unless you guys don't mind chilling after 930 on wkdays. everyone's on attachment and stuff, have to wake up early the next day ya? sigh..i can choose not to work but then i won't have the cashflow to have fun. oh admit it. MONEY IS crucial in EVERTHING! beg to differ?

Met marshmellow briefly today. he came to wait for me after work. went to ps mac while talking about barista stuffs on the way. met helluva lotsa cvss ppl from when we met to going home.which is only like less than 5 hrs. haha. hmmm lets recall - there was AlvinKer BoonHao Alwyn WeiSheng and some seniors which i have no idea they're names, BaoWen on the NEL, HuiXuan Ruzhen ParaParadunnohisname and another senior on the Lrt. ROFL! i don't even see so many ppl when i go to Compasspoint! ok so maybe i don't really pay attention when i walk by myself. anws, it was fun. the guys kinda changed much that one won't really recognise them without taking a closer look. erm, maybe it doesn't apply to AlvinKer cos he's the first one i spotted. haha! and maybe Alwyn cos he still has that sweet boy-next-door look (:
oh and ya kiwi IS more meaty as compared to him in sec sch. LOL!

Piggy if ur reading this from ur phone (which ur not supposed to), don't jealous k? hee. and pls just heck the serg or officer or whoever and run out of ur camp on thurs night okie? i wanna watch movie. heeeeeeee!

oh and i want alot of things. i dunoo what i want. everything?

oh ya. changed the bg too. love the white, but hearts this print at the moment. found it from somewhere which i forgot. hee.

Almost forgot - that day at botanical gardens with the guys -

2007-03-15T20:26:00.000+08:00

lack of updates.
assessments almost over. almost.
i still oh so crave for the pink sony vaio. but grey's nice too. but it looks too silver. i don't like silver. *pouts
work plans done. holiday plans not.
need money. like forever.

Now: working. met jessica pam and hazami(if im not mistaken). they caught the messenger. we started chatting. it turned out like a girls session, talking bout ghosts and all. haha. countdown to 1 hr 20 mins. piggy's picking me up with cheesecake! hees. hearts!

hmmm. life must start rolling. like now.friends? outtings? chiiling bullshitting sessions? lets book each others' time starting.......................................NOW! :)

relate-previous post

2007-03-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

ok i think my post caused piggy to frown. he read the post thru this phone in tekong. that kuku this mth's phone bill must sure cost a bomb with him surfing the net everyday. dardar ah.. charges not cheap leh!! anyways, what i said was not abt me and him la. we steady pom pee pee. he frown cos he say sounded like we broke up! LOL. oops. ok not abt piggy and me. i shall leave it as that. don't prompt further.those who gets it will get it. =)

enough!

2007-03-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

i've had it. it's so fucked up i tell you.
why even bother to salvage anything? its done.
im so gonna wash my hands off. completely now i mean.
sometimes, things just ain't meant to be. just let it go.
no point in dangling on a thin thread.
the past has passed. good memories will stay. overtime,the bad ones will fade away.
there's no reason to be people we're not and be unhappy abt it.

let it go. period.

work-overload

2007-02-21T01:18:00.000+08:00

look at the time! i should be in bed. daddy shoos me to bed everytime i stay up later than him. even if its only like 10pm. -_-'''
just surf-ed thru some sites i haven't been to in a long while. interesting stuff.
i have yet to touch any of the whole truck of unfinished trash i have. daymmmn! thinking of skipping school tmr. cos of undone work, and cos i dont feel good. all that new year goodies made my throat hurt.think im running a temperature too. never fails. year after year. one just can't resist. AND Jit's too nice. i heart him. wish every lecturer could be like him. and he's sooo cute! omg JIT!!!!
cny was ok. kinda boring in fact. besides having dar by me and finally having the chance to chill with the cousins on day2. no pics taken. forgot - oops!

gathering this sat. kinda looking forward to it. hope dar doesn't get stuck in camp. - hate those fucking army ppl who anyhow treat recruits - if dar doesn't get to book out as usual, they'll geddit from me. pouts*

should i stay up to complete my work? i effing haven't got enough sleep. you don't wanna see my eyebags. i wanna be sleeping beauty. i wanna sleep for the next 168hrs. can anyone grant me that wish? anyone? errrghs!!

and fuck i just rmbed i have to work tmr. fuck fuck fuck. now howmma gonna get enough sleep? boss better gimme a big fat ang pow for being so good and working right after cny.

and i wanna dance. i wanna party. but this fri cant girls, hafta prep for sat's gathering.

and i just decided i'll give school a pass tmr. gonna visit my friendly neighbourhood polyclinic doctor for an mc. my attendance sucks. to add to the hurray? my work sucks even more. how to pass yr 1 like that?

anyhows, may all have a smashin' short week. peace out!

xoxo,
melie

oh yay!

2007-02-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

i bought this.
shiok!
thanks to daddy. he paid 1/2. (:
next aim: psp/red motorazr (maybe)

piggy bought this. for vday. upped with a super sweet message.
hearts piggy lots lots! ♥

bought this for myself awhile back.
developed a fond for minnie after i got this.
:)

what a dreadful week!

2007-02-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

ohmyfinggod. this week is hell. work is pouring in by the truckloads. lack of sleep. lack of rest. lack of food. lack of energy. lack of hype. AND TONS TO BE DONE!! wtf man. what is this? hmmm. but thinking back, this is the result of procastination. so ppl, dont take after me. ever.

gonna bump on momo/phuture tonight. sorry girls. gonna bump on a fruitful lovely happy weekend. all for the sake of schoolwork. long overdued ones, recent ones, urgent ones.

early reunion coming sat. usually i look forward to this special day, cos its almost one of the few times the whole fam is sitted in the same dining room.total, i calculated, 3 times a year. haha! however this year, all i can think of is work work and more work. **** man! like what lor. ever since my entry into this 'prestigious' school all my mind is occupied is is school work. arghs!!! what happened to my life? or non-life. LOL! its like i dont even know anything anymore.
haiyo..headache ah. think my head growing bigger and bigger but the brain remains pea-d.

anyways, went shopping with jeanydear ytd. like finally. after *starts counting with fingers - then dropping everything and decided* forever. =D yes. THAT long. but no money ah. paycheque delayed. dunno when the fooo i'll get that pathetic few hundred. not even enough for me to survive thru this month after deducting off bills and nessasary expenditures.

lalalalaa *refraining from swearing* now the one thing i long for most is that 4 mths of
wonderland. which i might consider turning it into lalaland. 4 mths of sleep? wow! 'beauty' in training. lmao! heaven! :)

back!

2007-02-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

mel is back.finally found the time/lack of laziness to post. school has been a total headache. open house was a failure. but i was having quite a good time. got to know some really cool people. yay!

there'll be 4 mths of hols this yr. 4 full mths! shiok ah! wonder if i can find a job...*ponders* anyone has any offers? email me :)

as usual, im bad with words, so let the pictures do the talking ya? muahs!

2007-01-08T11:15:00.000+08:00

La-fcuk will be back in action soon. Hold it for that tiny bit.

photos will be sent by wed.i was busy and didn'thave the time.sorry.

hugs to all!

hateit.

2006-11-30T01:44:00.000+08:00

FUCK TONALITY OF VOICES!
FUCK MISCONCEPTIONS!
FUCK MISINTERPRETATIONS!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!

fuggedupbloggerconnection

2006-11-23T03:08:00.000+08:00

blogger better be working this time around. its so irritating when i get disconnected from blogger, then i'll have to re-wait for pictures to get posted.

anyways, back to business.what an amazing (last) week. Seeming and Robin got hitched! wishing the newlyweds a happy and blissful marriage ahead. so happy for them. it set me thinking about life and the future....too complicated to be bothering now. visuals up ahead.

passing for a blonde

2006-11-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

visuals for the previous post:

happy birthday mummy!

i absolutely adore this girl. so cute! haha.

eski bar

how can there not be a picture of us/me?! LOL.

til next time. toodles! ♥ piggy

smokin'

2006-11-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

weeeweet! first week of school. over and out. new classmates were..... still can't comment. but im sticking to my bunch. if you know what i mean. this week's gonna be brief, cos im prolly going to flunk. *eileen don't slaughter me pls*
anyhows, time to rock and roll! cos this laidee's partaeying baby!! woohoo!!

i'll upload visuals next time. night darlings!

2006-11-06T09:15:00.000+08:00

countdown to 2 1/2 hrs.
my eyes hurt.
piggy's not up yet.
mum's bday's in 2 days and i freaking haven't got her something.

the hols are over.
nothing productive to be proud of.
daymnnnnn!

Jitters.

2006-11-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

school starts in less than 12 hrs. darns. spent the weekend lazing around. haven't even touched my books. may the holy one watch over me.

some of the ppl i thought changed for the better really never changed at all. the materialism in them have, instead, grown. how very tragic. but at the same time, i cant say much for myself. people judge and criticise from the minimal surface that they see, they think they know. wrong! but whatever. i mean, doesn't everybody do the same? how sinful.

let's take a look at the albums, shall we?

i've put on alot since idunnowhen. what a fishball!

i ♥ ME

flushed away!

2006-11-04T01:01:00.000+08:00

went to Great World to catch flushed away. kinda disappointing tho some scenes were kinda funny.

baby's out riding with friends. im in my room with sissy, watching some hilary duff movie. duh. its so boring. nothing on tivo. how i wish i have cable......

stumbled upon this shirt at zara. check it out, my birthdate! LOL.

going to bed. nighties!

2006-11-03T13:45:00.000+08:00

got my computer and wireless connection more or less fixed, thanks to piggy. ♥

the past few days have been..well, intense. don't wish to elaborate thou.

anyways,

helped at TP for a day. met kiwi for a short while after.

i heart this picture of piggy. roarr!

alrighty. going out with pop, mom & sis. later~

GAWD!

2006-10-28T16:01:00.000+08:00

PROBLEMATIC!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH BLOGGER?!?!!?! erghs. my previous post was so super incomplete.

anyways..
didn't do much the past few days. piggy's mum went for cateract surgery at Mt Alvernia hospital. she's fine now. hope in a few more days she can see clearly. as wendy said - god bless mummy. ok photo update:

bummed.

2006-10-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday was, well, yesterday. caught DeadOrAlive with piggy. he said it was a dumb show, but i think its like so funny. its like playing a street fighters movie, gaming style. haha. do i even make sense here? anyway..

the dumbs bummed on meeting cos sweets' experiencing female problems.uh-huh.empty pockets anyway.and sweets, if ur reading this, pls update ur mouldy blog. haha.

he got bored while waiting for me;

devoured on haagen daz;

Globe Trot - Rome

2006-10-23T08:08:00.000+08:00

The Colosseum ala Gladiator

2006-10-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

okay, the updates. problems with blogger. seems im not the only one. so since i cant load images in the entry, refer to the left column - flickr badge, for updates. (:

20/10 - dxo night:
DXO was fun! haha. phillippino band playing but it was the deejay's mix that rocked the house. the place's setup was amazing, with a loft and all. nice. had fun shaking booties on the dance floor.

21/10 - Vivocity:
it was HUGE!! its like all of the shops you can find in sg, there in just one megamall. its so awesome. what more, its just a str. train down from sk. yeah baby!! :)

22/10 - slack with piggy:
watched The Grudge, In Her Shoes, and Saving Private Ryan, where i slept thru the entire show. don't be mistaken, i love war movies, was just too tired and the bed was so comfy....

♥ piggy

damnit!!

2006-10-22T13:17:00.000+08:00

problems with blogger. will be updating another day or so. crap.

pigging out.

2006-10-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

I AM SUCHA LAZY BITCH!!

yes. dont be shocked. i am! gawd. i've been a couch potato and snack whore since forever, and haven't stopped. i love sitting in front of the com for hours and just do nothng. what can i say, i LOVE to waste time.

alright, enough of bitchin' already. will be meeting the dumbs in approx. 3 hrs, still havent decided what to wear. im still sitting here surfing ebay. haha. love to 'window shop', never have i bought anything tho.

oooh did i mention i love my housekeeeper, sometimes? she would just be a doll and ask if i needed anything to eat or something to drink or such. she's so nice. hearts her.

♥ piggy

image updates:

sexyback

2006-10-20T02:15:00.000+08:00

ahoy! re-blogged after sucha looooonng time. a hell lot of events to update. its been fun.

august: busy and more busy with school stuffs. assessments were dued for submission. managed to pass all. No Re-Submissions!! yay! :)

october: the hols was supposed to be study time for amaths. guess it didn't happen and im prepping to flunk it. cant find the determination to study. gosh. books make me faint.
anyway had class chalet at Aloha Changi. scary. yeah i know. the first night was kinda freakish. but ok la. the second day on was fun. went to changi village see the 'beautiful people', conquered OCH, which scared the shit out of me, had bbq as usual, and went with piggy to see the stretch of changi beach, BEAUTIFUL VIEW.

i grew to love my mates here. tho they're not like the gang in sp, there's still this bond we created. i take back my words. i had fun with them. carol+louis=1st couple in class // kenneth+louis=prata khakis // love eileen's moomoocow! // and more to come.

chilling at DXO with the girls tmr. dummies oh dummies - major girltalk needed.

no money;

♥ piggy

2006-08-05T17:38:00.000+08:00

firstly, if you cant take my incessant rantings of my life, go away. why be all so fake?

speaking of which, did i mention that i super duper HATE plastic people? yah. so fuck off if you happen to be one.

fell in love with motorcross and similar-related stuffs. what can i say? its getting to me. =)

i miss my loves. sigh.

2006-07-28T15:16:00.000+08:00

boohoohoo! and im sick. yes. AGAIN!! damn. this sucks man. what's up with the flu bug? now i've wasted half of my holidays sticking to my bed. which may not necessarily be a bad thing, but... anyways. don't think there'll be any practice later since my phone's not ringing the right person. i have morning shift tmr and granny's bday right after. i better be good before tmr.

i need moolahs!!

its so boring i can't stand it. which explains why im sitting on the chair typing this. can't you tell? IM BORED!! why do you think im cracking super cold jokes? duh.

whatevs. this is so dumb man! :Q

2006-07-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

missed me? hee. am over at gab's place with afew of the dearly beloved sp peeps. sigh.. seems just like yesterday when we were in year 1 having fun. clearly, i was happy. and all my one self. now?..... im just bored and anti social. people in school here are.... oh well. as i always say, make the best out of nothing if not everything. at least i still have the rest of my life to be happy abt. wonderful ppl who'd stepped in my life and brought me joy and laughter. for that, im grateful. you guys know that im refering to you. *winks*

anyways, im broke outta my socks. payday's not til mid next month. and i have tons of money-needed things to do. pray PLS MONEY FALL FROM THE SKY!! lol. you wish.

store meet at 6 later. the darlings bummed on catching movie. (which is kinda good cos that way i spend less.haha!) so now i've lots of time to spare! haha. which explains why im so free to type sucha looooooooong entry. i envy gab. love his sound system. MUCH better than my low-grade-kuku-birdbrain mini player. boos. and my computer is not here yet! -the one that's sent for servicing. boo. my computer guy's slow. *pouts* ok so he has a dayjob. so? i should be his top piority! haha.ok im being ridiculous.

so..finally decided im gonna take part in the teacher's day dance number. decided im not going to just waste my time away. decided im going to do what i like most-est. and decided im going to persue it in some way or other. they say 18's when you sorta finally know what you wanna do with ur life. well? perhaps. i've been no able to let go fully some of the past. but with some really lovely and loving help, i did. and im proud of myself. you gotta be comfortable with urself before anything else. now mel's back! and prolly better than ever. thanks dear! :)

loves. im so lucky. that there'r ppl in my life to make it worthwhile. to make me smile that no matter what happens, they'll be there. and new loving ppl will continue to enter. read articles on ppl wanting to commit suicide or related incidents. i can just sigh. sometimes life really is THAT meaningless and if u've been that way for a long time and havent seen any glimer of hope or even a faint light to guide you thru, u'll just lose faith and lose urself to the world, but most importantly to urself. so, no matter how dark the road is, find light, any light that can lead you further away from that long dark road that u may just continue to walk if you dont help urself. be grateful for everything. the good, the bad, the happy, the sad. cos these are the things that make u learn abt urself. abt ur life. and abt the meaning of ur existence in the world. cos no matter how you feel, you are something to someone, no matter what you think. give thanks for even an existence in life. even great ppl whom you think live great lifes like themselves experience hardships at some point in their lives. SMILE! at urself that u must have made it good to be able to read this. and smile that ur able to smile. so, SMILE!! :)

2006-07-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps. havent been really free with all the school shits and stuff. i've been sicka whole last week. gawd! and the internals of my com got burnt. damn.

anyways a quick reply to the tags:
may: you ok? call me whenever ya? i'll prolly be going back next week.hugs!
grace: mei ah! its been long. i'll link ya. miss you!! :)
Reenie: the song's shi jie wei yi de ni by gary cao :)

okiedokes. guess i've been real mia from everywhere. msn, blogs... and i noticed im so not cut out for arts school. sighs. one thing-I SO CANT DRAW!!! LOL. ok be back for updates. gonna go visit the friendly neighbourhood doctor for my mc. later-

new lay.

2006-06-24T16:20:00.000+08:00

yeash. guess i haven't been in msn much. ok i need a com in my room for easier excess to usage of the net. hmmm. kind sponsors, anyone?

ok off to get some work done. toddles! ♥

dummies!

2006-06-21T19:16:00.000+08:00

Its FAB! kind of. more or less. the life. how i feel. how things are.

i love my girls. i love my boys. i love it.
i wanna do well. i wanna remain now. i want the best for me. and i want me to be free.
i wanna shape up. my sweeties and i.
i love.

school's okay. hope it'll be better tho.
life's calm down. friends, love, family, etc.
things must remain. or be MUCH better.
i love.

sometimes you dunno if you can trust someone but you still choose to do so.
i've lost faith. but if. maybe its true. i could put my trust in you.
i love.

im not a girl, not yet a woman.
im no superwoman.

shi jie wei yi de ni

2006-05-24T17:14:00.000+08:00

shi ni
yi yan wo jiu ren chu lai
zhe shi ming yun zui mei li de an pai
shi ai
rang ni lue guo man chang deng dai
wo men zhi yao xian zai xiang ai
xing fu jiu lai

hen wo lai bu ji cen yu ni de guo qu
bao qian rang ni deng dai
wo yuan yi fu chu yi qie jiao huan
wo ling hun de ling yi ban

zhe ge shi jie wei yi de ni
shi wo yong you de qi ji
dui wo shuo de yi zi yi ju
dou shi wo men de mi mi
jin jin yong bao wei yi de ni
wu ke jiu yao de jian ding
jiu suan shi jie yu wo wei di
wo ye yuan yi
wo shen me dou yuan yi

kan kai
guo qu suo you de bei ai
dou zhi shi shun li wo wei ni yong gan
zhen ai
zhao liang le qi hei de ye wan
xun zhao le bi ci yi bei zi
zai bu fen kai

hen wo lai bu ji cen yu ni de guo qu
bao qian rang ni deng dai
wo yuan yi fu chu yi qie jiao huan
wo ling hun de ling yi ban

i would climb the highest mountain
i would swim the deepest sea
dui wo shuo de yi zi yi ju
dou shi wo men de mi mi
jin jin yong bao wei yi de ni
wu ke jiu yao de jian ding
jiu suan shi jie yu wo wei di
wo ye yuan yi
wo shen me dou yuan yi

ai jiu xiang yi zhong jie bu kai de mo zhou
yu ni zai ci jie tuo
wo yuan yi fu chu yi qie jiao huan
wo ling hun de ling yi ban

i would climb the highest mountain
i would swim the deepest sea
jiu suan yao wo shang tian xia di
wo shen me dou yuan yi wei ni
jin jin yong bao wei yi de ni
wu ke jiu yao de jian ding
jiu suan shi jie yu wo wei di
wo ye yuan yi
wo shen me dou yuan yi

2006-05-18T19:55:00.000+08:00

What a stupid fucking bad day. effs.

may be meeting the deardarlings tmr. movie? i need money.

sighs.

fantastico

2006-05-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

Phew! Working almost everyday. then chilling out at night. woohoo. this is actually not too bad.considering that one's actually quite free, without having to make deadlines and stuff.
Realised alot of ppl dropped out of school. hah. guys-very eager to go army is it?

Oh talking bout school. i FINALLY received that freaking letter. school starts 5 June! happen to know some ppl going into the same course.and yay! meet new people! hardeharhar.

OH OH OH!! Store's gonna open 25 may!! fwahahaha! like.finally.

I must've said finally like so many times. haha.

*When something good ends, it could be that its making way for something better to happen.*

Ok gtg. later-

woooppiieeeeeee~

2006-05-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

ha ha. right. like things are good. well actually, they kinda are, at the moment.

cookie's up for fostering.
many thanks to yanling and junlong. Love You Guys! :)

dummies got our long overdued gathering. looking forward to more. say weekly or fortnightly? haha.

the stupid domestic problems are fianlly gone, together with cookie's departure. sighs.
lucky i can still see him again. yay!!

I wanna apologise to friends(if you guys are reading).sorry i've been so temperamental lately.and if i've offended you or something, pardon me ya? y'all know im not usually like this. but im better now. so there's all that catching up to do. partay baby!! :)

oh i so need my artinery for school.its killing me.not knowing when school's gonna start and all. gawd. the school's management either forgotten abt me - screw whoever that is / the letter got lost in the mail - screw singpost / or that school's not gonna start this year! - champagne anyone?? LOL.

alrights.off.
bye-

.

2006-05-01T02:31:00.000+08:00

cant get to sleep.
music playing.
cant release.
cant help thinking.
dont think...
dunno what im thinking.

no one wants to follow up on other people's sob story.

im getting too random.

hating is not an option.

2006-05-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

they just dont get it, do they?

they are just fuckingly oblivious. unsatisfied. unappreciative. biased. plastic. ignorant. arrogant. irritating.

its so shadowed. its pathetic. they're pathetic.

or maybe its me. maybe i just dont see it. i just dont feel it. really.

if they ever read this...

2006-05-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

my oh my. The Father just walked into the room with this "have you completed the task yet?!!" talk. brief. fuck. whatevs.

i really hate this feeling inside of me. when its something good, i call it intuition. but its not. so now its bullshit.

why do i sometimes feel like a broken unmendable arrow? the reasons for living just seems to be getting lesser by the day. the breaths that i inhale seems to get weaker. a part of me is dying. my heart's barely beating. everyday's darkening. maybe i've had enough of these shit. all's in caution. all's a waste.

im losing myself into my life. i've been losing things. lives who have walked out. i've been bruised by the people closest to me. i feel so betrayed.

daily smiles and laughter. no they ain't fake. but they ain't real either. like REALLY real. im losing energy. im losing faith.
but im not ready to give up.

the truth of things ain't always positive. one can't forever be looking on the bright side. sometimes, its better not to know the truth. the ugly, ugly truth. Of life. Of people. Of things.

i scream. 'cos it hurts.

crunch time!

2006-04-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

i love my cookie boy.

i seriously have problems with traditional or typically unagreeing people.
adults mostly.

i love Pride and Prejudice.

i cant wait for SB-CY to open.

i love movie-marathoning.

i need money. when's pay day ever gonna arrive?

why doesn't the government give us money packages too?

etc.

im developing symptoms. i may be crooked. who knows? who cares?
hahaa. :)

undiscovered

2006-04-24T16:27:00.000+08:00

Its been quite a while.busy? perhaps. there've been alot of drama going on recently.i so just feel like staying in bed.there wasnt one good day in the past 2 weeks. like literally. there's always something going wrong.there's always something to worry about. sigh.

more later.dont feel like typing now.

im boored. duh.

2006-03-27T15:19:00.000+08:00

Your Dating Purity Score: 93%

You are an innocent dater.You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship.Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample!

Dating Purity Test

Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise.Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself.You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books.
You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life.You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world.A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Your Hair Should Be Orange

Expressive, deep, and one of a kind.You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others

You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.
You should major in:
CounselingEnvironmental studiesLawSocial workPolitical scienceNursing

What Should You Major In?

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner.For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.
You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.
Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.
You connect best with: Earth
Avoid: Fire
You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person.But when you don't get your way, watch out.Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want.Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorableEven a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's lifeBy giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urgesIf someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of storyYou can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kissesA total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Are 68% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world.Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.People crave your praise and complements.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Birth Month is September

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.
Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love
Your gemstone: Sapphire
Your flower: Morning Glory
Your colors: Brown and deep blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.
Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.
With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.
You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer

Your blog is your stage - with your visitors your adoring fans.At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners.And while you like attention, you value your privacy.You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

You Are 80% Open Minded

You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

no regrets.

2006-03-17T01:56:00.000+08:00

Finally decided to come back to blogging afterall.

But i think it'll be more pictures than words. perhaps.

So, visuals as updates.

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went to pub underground quite a while ago with those 3 cuties.made aquaintances with a kinda-cute bartender who so happens to also be the boss. LOL. he gave us free drinks! how nice. hmmm. then again, not. right sis? LOL :)

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how nice is it to love Starbucks coffee and be part of its crew? imma partner!! :)

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Oh. one last thing.

will be saying goodbye to SP, and hello to NAFA!

gawd. i felt a sense of guilt and unwillingness whenever i said "...withdraw from SP..." . It just seems so (whatsthatword) , ironic? yeh. a year ago i was psyched on being able to make it to SP (tho not into my choice of course) and now, a year later, im leaving! sighs. a year of memories. im gonna miss u guys so much!! no regrets tho. its been a great year! and its gonna get better.no worries tho right? there's still a thing as contact. so yeh. Visual Com here i come! :)